I DO think too much!
Ok...Ness pointed out a truth (my skeleton in the closet, lol.) Actually the thinking too much Ness mentioned I take as a compliment! It's some of the other thinking that I sometimes do too much I am not real comfortable with...
Sometimes I think about stuff like "why couldn't God have made me a *normal* person" In my heart I know I don't really mean it, but sometimes I *wish* I could be more selfish. Today as I headed into the bathroom I looked at the shower and felt SO tired of remembering how I have the re-grout job waiting for me. I am tired of looking at plastic sheeting duct taped over the tiles. I felt this discouragement (satan?) that I feel compelled to give money to do things like help get laptops for Asian missionaries rather than spend money on stuff for me/us.
Now, before anyone calls me a whiner, I do not feel we are deprived...not in the least...and I do not mind working hard (anyone who knws me knows I am not a slacker!) In fact, if I could do one thing to change this whole thought process, I would help others to think the same. I think then I would feel less wierd.
posted by Sandy Mc @ 4:28 PM
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Only have minute, since my kids are clamoring for lunch and another one is screaming at the top of her lungs wanting her boots on (with her pajamas) but I understand. I do the same thing. I know what it is like to know that on the home front, you are the only one who will ultimately get the job(s) done. And then, beyond grout, beyond poopy diapers, beyond organizing the pile of bills and papers that has grown to crazy proportions....there is the yawning world full of need that you feel real compassion for and would like to contribute good to. I understand.
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