Sideswiped!

That's how I feel tonight. No, I was not in a car wreck, just a crash of words. I am trying SO hard to explain myself with this vision/passion/calling for sharing in ways that encourage the north american church to revisit the original mission of the church.

Today I had an e-mail discussion with a friend who is a leader...a friend who I thought knew me and believed in me. However, he used words to question my whole calling. I am thinking he maybe is like so many leaders I have spoken with before and does not hear what I am really saying...perhaps (as my husband believes) people are not really open to the possibility that God might use me...a simple stay at home mom to do something challenging...difficult in His name. I talked at length with a friend about some of the statements that were made and she believes he *must* have misunderstood me.

I admit it...God made me odd. I have tried to be all that He calls me to be...even though it would be nice to just skip it all. A friend at our church in Michigan once counseled me when I was at a similar place (feeling like being a "Jonah" would be better)..."it's pretty slimy in the belly of that fish" Maybe I will continue to not go there.