A dry spell?

It's been far too long since I posted here, but I have been a regular poster on other people's blogs and the message boards I belong to, so no, I am not in a dry spell. I guess partly I am feeling I am not sure the best place to share my thoughts. On the message boards I feel like I can sometimes help people...at least through encouragement.

I guess I feel way to selfish posting stuff here "just because"...

I do need to decide how to spend my time. With the Emergent Friends message board I am administering, another blog for the emergent conversation in NW Arkansas I just set up (hopefully soon to become an Emergent Village Cohort group), and my acts-vision.org site that needs to be completed...well, I need to decide.

A friend encouraged me to figure out how this vision I am carrying plays out. Well, that's a bit hard. I really think I share the same direction as Reggie McNeal shares in his book, The Present Future: " ...to help leaders who are practitioners in many different settings sort through the implications of an emerging world in terms of how we are church." My personal effort diverges a bit from what he said before that, "...because of my life calling..." since I believe God is calling me to do the same thing as Reggie but from the eyes of a sheep in the flock. Unfortunately, so far l have had almost no leaders accept that the Holy Spirit might actually work through a plain everyday mom like me. Does not the Bible have many stories of those who appeared to be not very "qualified" carrying forth the Kingdom message? I would be lying to say it does not occasionally at least hurt my human heart, but God calls me on to persevere.

Another friend (and very nice person) shared this weekend that her family has been attending the same church (and faithfully serving MOST weeks) for OVER 15 years and they still feel like they are not connected. It is for people like that, that I believe God calls me to keep on keeping on!

Sandy